Reaction time & Short term memory

Checked about reaction time and found this is inherited, the most improvement in reaction time would just be 10-20%. It's kinda sad when you're unable to keep up with a conversation fml.

Stressed out, thus the fear actually slower the reaction even further. Probably sometimes I just can't remember names in full, feel a bit lost during the conversation. Wondering whether I have some disease and looked up on Google. 

Found Aphasia, syndromes are unable to use appropriate wordings for presentation of ideas, not remembering names in full (probably disorders) and using strange words. I feel kinda fit in with these symptoms but the thing is, it is commonly caused by stroke or brain damage.

Unfortunately I didn't experience any of these. Or, maybe I just can't remember I lost the memory.

Relationship

Is relationship hard to handle?

Seeing my friends got trapped into relationships, I'm just wondering is it a good thing to get involve into such shit.

Past relationships hurt, especially for girls to certain extend. Girls generally overthink a lot, and more emotional than guys. 

Funny things happen all time. You know you have to let him go but you can't. You know once you let go you'll be happier, but you choose not to.

Girls are commonly love dig their own graves. Checking out his status. Want to stay connect with him. Want to feel him. Want to be so far yet so near from him.

Even for the current ones, love is bitter and sweet simultaneously. Keeping each other updated on the daily activities, sharing emotional and being really attach to each other. Later, words that you said will be against you, like a sword. 🙈 

Losing the privacy and freedom as scarification for love. 

Love is bruise or scar? Temporary or permanent?