pls dont tell out

pls dont tell out

tell u..
someone who cares me
really "sayang" me
today she bought a handphone for me
actually i m happy
i wanna go play badminton today
although i m only a backup
but y cant i go
i m not so "geng"
y cant i take part in the competition??
i dont wanna waste my qing chun
cannot merr??
u know?
she said i oso not that "geng"
the class can no need me
do u know that this really hurts my fellings?!
i oso dono larr...
i find the lace for the gift
she say
y need u?
others cant do it izit?
y cant i help others
i wanna do sth for others
i wish i m useful
me...
always need others help
i really wish that i can independent
but y??
my family will say me this say me that
haihzzz....
i oso dono larr...
i wanna be active not pasive
i realise i waste too much time
in junior
i juz dont wanna participate in every things
now i try to do a lot
i dont wanna b regret
y dont juz let me be active?
i start to love dance
my society
but .....
u all think that that is not important
only results iare important
i need to work hard
my dear
i really wanna be active not pasive 1
i wanna to help others
menyumbang kpd class SR1A
dance club
cannot merr????
i m really unhappy today